The axe I grind OOC is the axe I have been grinding for the last ten years - I was grinding it before you left, I continued to grind it while you were absent, and it's still grinding now you've returned. Why in the world did you think I'd stop just because you weren't here? Do you paint yourself as the root of all evil or something? Far from it. So very far from it.
It was never going to stop based on who was present - I grind it against an attitude, against a point of view that has, until recently, controlled what does and does not happen within our little group with a relatively iron fist. The fact that it always ends up grinding against the same people is an expression of their espousing that attitude in every LARP related thought, word and deed. I can't change the world. I'm only one person. My axe would be dulled and destroyed long before it made a difference in the wider world. Here, however, it can be useful.
It comes with the price, however, that I have to be as positive when I see something I think is good as I am negative when I see something I think is bad. As an example, while I headdesked at the new characters some players brought out, I later publicly complimented one of the portrayals of the what appeared to inspire them as highly accurate and well done. Maybe you didn't hear that, maybe it conveniently slipped your mind. Besides, do you think it's just me who digs at other people's characters? Really? Really? Do you think I invented such pearls as 'Dork in the Desk'? 'Team Just-us'?
It comes with another price as well - I have to be that harsh on myself, or I'm a hypocrite. I would be willing to offer a sizable wager that I am the only player to ever refuse to take a given bonus point (it still sits there unused from the second druid rearrangement game, and will do forevermore). I'd be willing to offer a smaller one that I recommend myself for negatives more than almost anyone else - perhaps more than anyone else at all. I freely espouse an attitude to characterisation that would lead to more character deaths, including my own.
I don't like unoriginal characters. The world and his wife knows that's a pet peeve of mine. However, what I said was supposed to be a rib, the likes of which happen a hundred times or more in the hours before and after a typical LARP. If I was that openly insulting, that wasn't my intention. I will personally apologise to all those I dug at in such a fashion the next time I see them, including you, and make sure that I give more consideration to what I am saying before I say it in the future.
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Date: 2013-10-22 09:21 am (UTC)It was never going to stop based on who was present - I grind it against an attitude, against a point of view that has, until recently, controlled what does and does not happen within our little group with a relatively iron fist. The fact that it always ends up grinding against the same people is an expression of their espousing that attitude in every LARP related thought, word and deed. I can't change the world. I'm only one person. My axe would be dulled and destroyed long before it made a difference in the wider world. Here, however, it can be useful.
It comes with the price, however, that I have to be as positive when I see something I think is good as I am negative when I see something I think is bad. As an example, while I headdesked at the new characters some players brought out, I later publicly complimented one of the portrayals of the what appeared to inspire them as highly accurate and well done. Maybe you didn't hear that, maybe it conveniently slipped your mind. Besides, do you think it's just me who digs at other people's characters? Really? Really? Do you think I invented such pearls as 'Dork in the Desk'? 'Team Just-us'?
It comes with another price as well - I have to be that harsh on myself, or I'm a hypocrite. I would be willing to offer a sizable wager that I am the only player to ever refuse to take a given bonus point (it still sits there unused from the second druid rearrangement game, and will do forevermore). I'd be willing to offer a smaller one that I recommend myself for negatives more than almost anyone else - perhaps more than anyone else at all. I freely espouse an attitude to characterisation that would lead to more character deaths, including my own.
I don't like unoriginal characters. The world and his wife knows that's a pet peeve of mine. However, what I said was supposed to be a rib, the likes of which happen a hundred times or more in the hours before and after a typical LARP. If I was that openly insulting, that wasn't my intention. I will personally apologise to all those I dug at in such a fashion the next time I see them, including you, and make sure that I give more consideration to what I am saying before I say it in the future.