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Thoughts On A Hollow Victory...
Aug. 21st, 2006 02:18 pm...as I sat watching a four-hour IC session in the pub after Sunday's larp.
Did I miss a trick here?
Three years ago when I started, I distinctly remember there being one IC post-larp pub session. Now, each and every week, there are two, three, four separate conversations that happen between characters who may or may not have been present on the preceeding game. In addition, I have to assume that the number of IC MSN conversations has at the very least, not dropped between then and now. To whit, the game world has transcended time in/time out boundaries, and carries on in its own dynamic universe of player-created and multilaterally influential plot free of GM, ref, or scaffold-toting giant moderation.
Hang on, I think to myself, this all sounds very familiar.
It appears that one way or another, some of my points got across.
Looking around this brave new (or more likely rediscovered) world, I ask myself: Did I create the concepts I see now in regular use? Not remotely. Did I catalyse their inception/return to BLADES? Quite possibly. Am I pleased they are now (once again) in place and people can enjoy them? Very much so. Am I pissed off that continued criticism of my use of them prompted me to stop trying not six months before they became both commonplace and acceptable?
Ever so slightly.
I find the character I created to pander to these very criticisms is obsolete. A character that could not affect the world around him, by way of his being unable to physically or socially interact with it, I thought would cover all bases of acceptability. No-one could possibly claim that a character who never spoke to them or looked at them could be interfering with any roleplay they were engaged with or might be engaged with in the future.
Now I find that it was alright to do so all along.
Not only am I left feeling as though I slammed the stable door shut just as the horse managed to bolt, but I face the added dual annoyances of the horse having been mine and my inability to afford a new one. I have two dead characters, another who was more boring to play than statistical mechanics and another who's roleplay occurs exclusively in his own head, the only place I thought it was safe for me to do so without somehow getting anyone else's way, and now I find precisely what I dreamed of my dynamic characters being able to do happening for several hours every Sunday night and all over the MSN network 24/7/52.
Am I selfish to be wanting a part of what I spent my entire career at Bath trying to do and now has belatedly been accepted? Maybe I am, but similarly maybe I'm not, and regardless, this is my LJ and I'll cry if I want to.
Did I miss a trick here?
Three years ago when I started, I distinctly remember there being one IC post-larp pub session. Now, each and every week, there are two, three, four separate conversations that happen between characters who may or may not have been present on the preceeding game. In addition, I have to assume that the number of IC MSN conversations has at the very least, not dropped between then and now. To whit, the game world has transcended time in/time out boundaries, and carries on in its own dynamic universe of player-created and multilaterally influential plot free of GM, ref, or scaffold-toting giant moderation.
Hang on, I think to myself, this all sounds very familiar.
It appears that one way or another, some of my points got across.
Looking around this brave new (or more likely rediscovered) world, I ask myself: Did I create the concepts I see now in regular use? Not remotely. Did I catalyse their inception/return to BLADES? Quite possibly. Am I pleased they are now (once again) in place and people can enjoy them? Very much so. Am I pissed off that continued criticism of my use of them prompted me to stop trying not six months before they became both commonplace and acceptable?
Ever so slightly.
I find the character I created to pander to these very criticisms is obsolete. A character that could not affect the world around him, by way of his being unable to physically or socially interact with it, I thought would cover all bases of acceptability. No-one could possibly claim that a character who never spoke to them or looked at them could be interfering with any roleplay they were engaged with or might be engaged with in the future.
Now I find that it was alright to do so all along.
Not only am I left feeling as though I slammed the stable door shut just as the horse managed to bolt, but I face the added dual annoyances of the horse having been mine and my inability to afford a new one. I have two dead characters, another who was more boring to play than statistical mechanics and another who's roleplay occurs exclusively in his own head, the only place I thought it was safe for me to do so without somehow getting anyone else's way, and now I find precisely what I dreamed of my dynamic characters being able to do happening for several hours every Sunday night and all over the MSN network 24/7/52.
Am I selfish to be wanting a part of what I spent my entire career at Bath trying to do and now has belatedly been accepted? Maybe I am, but similarly maybe I'm not, and regardless, this is my LJ and I'll cry if I want to.
